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Chapter 3: What I'm Lacking
欠けているもの (Kakete iru mono)
欠けているもの (Kakete iru mono)
Character appearances:
The Next Day
WEEKEND GARAGE
WEEKEND GARAGE
Toya
...Hello.
An's Father
Oh, Toya. You're rehearsing here today, aren't you? There's a table over here, feel free to use it.
Toya
Thank you. For my order... I'll have a house blend.
An's Father
Roger that.
Toya
...
Toya
(No matter how many times I watch this video, It's only my voice that sounds stiff.)
Toya
(Just what should I do about this…?)
Akito
Toya, my bad. I kept you waiting. I got held up with the soccer club guys.
Toya
...Right.
Akito
What's with that dark look on your face? Somethin' worrying you again?
Toya
...Yes. There is. I realized a fatal flaw with my singing.
Toya
To be honest, I have no idea what to do about it. Akito, if you wouldn't mind, I want to hear your opinion on...Hm?
Toya
What's wrong, Akito? You look so surprised.
Akito
It's nothin', just didn't think you'd come right out and talk about it like that...
Toya
...What do you mean?
Akito
When you start worrying about somethin', you won't say a word and keep it to yourself.
Akito
And then you'll get all bogged down with it alone... You did exactly that when we had that fight before.
Toya
...That's true.
Akito
Well, it looks like you've managed to kick that little habit of yours, either way.
Toya
Seems like it. All thanks to you.
Akito
Ha, flattery won't get you anywhere.
An's Father
Sorry for the wait. One house blend coffee. You want the same, Akito?
Akito
Aah, yeah. Please.
Toya
Thank you, Ken-san.
An's Father
I got some real special beans in today. Great aroma on them too. I think you'll be feeling a little better after you have some, Toya.
An's Father
I dunno what it is that's bothering you, but don't let yourself be burdened with too much again, alright?
Toya
Ah...
Akito
Ken-san, you realized somethin' was off?
An's Father
More or less. Just my wisdom in old age.
Toya
Sorry to make you look after me like this...
An's Father
You're gonna have days like this, y'know. Did something happen?
Toya
Yes. Actually--
— Some time later —
Akito
--Because of classical music, you're being restricted into a set form, huh?
Toya
...because I was brought up in the classical genre.
Toya
For example, if a pianist who had studied classical music decided to switch to jazz, they might not be able to play the swing rhythms well.
Toya
Because they're being held back by the form of classical, they wouldn't be able to get into the groove needed for jazz. That's why...
An's Father
You think the same's happened to yourself?
Toya
...Yes.
Toya
I just feel like there's something different about my singing compared to Akito and the others. I can't really describe it... it's like it doesn't feel completely free.
Toya
Because of that, I'm stuck in a mold, and I don't think I can sing in a way that doesn't sound boring.
Akito
...I don't think that at all.
Akito
If you were someone who could only sing like you're stuck in a mold, I wouldn't have become your partner.
An's Father
That's true. I feel the same.
Toya
But...
Toya
--No. If Akito says so, then it must be true.
An's Father
Haha, he's got quite some faith in you.
Toya
But...what is it? Why does it sound like I have this lack of freedom?
Toya
It's like I'm being trapped by classical music...that's the feeling I get.
An's Father
Hm. If we can't hear anything wrong with it, but that's not true for you...
An's Father
Then the answer's simple.
Toya
Eh?
An's Father
If there's no problem with your singing but you're still feeling like that, then the cause isn't classical music, but something else entirely.
Toya
Something else...?
Toya
...
An's Father
You look like you've already found the issue.
Toya
Yes. But this is something that I need to settle myself...
Akito
...Is it your old man?
Toya
...Yeah. Just the other day, he told me to go back to classical music, and we ended up fighting.
Toya
But I've already decided that I'm going to continue on with you and the others, with resolve.
Toya
So I told my father, "I'm not going back to classical music. I'll pursue street music, and street music alone."
Toya
He doesn't seem to approve of it, but it’s just a difference in values. There's nothing I can do about that.
Toya
So I thought that I would feel satisfied by that...
An's Father
Hm...
An's Father
But even so, you're probably not so satisfied on the inside, huh?
Toya
Huh?
An's Father
I had this thought when I was listening to you talk before, but your father has a pretty large presence in your life.
An's Father
Do you think you might still have some regret about choosing a path he's against?
Toya
That's...
An's Father
Well, I guess trying to understand your father is an upward battle...
An's Father
In any case, if you're dragging it out like this, then you might just have to suck it up and face him head on.
Toya
...
An
Sorry I'm laaate! Disciplinary committee work really dragged on!
Kohane
Me too, I'm sorry for being so late!
Akito
...We were just talking to Ken-san, no worries. If we're all ready, let's start warm ups.
An
Mm? Toya, you good? You seem kinda down...
Toya
...No, I'm fine.
Toya
Ken-san, thank you very much. I'll try giving some thought to what I can do.
An's Father
Right. Don't get too caught up in it.
Toya
Okay...
Kohane
Oh, by the way, about what we talked about the other day - my dad says he'll be coming to our event.
Kohane
He said he'll see if it's a dangerous place or not, and he'll watch and think it over!
An
Really!? That's awesome!
An
You think he might be surprised to see you singing all cool up on stage at the event?
Kohane
Ehehe, it's a little embarrassing to think about.
Toya
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