The first concerto/Story/Chapter 4

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Chapter 4: I Will Never Again
俺はもう二度と (? (edit))

Character appearances:

Translator(s):

lozy bug (lozy; cookie bug; and Bash)

Source(s):

Youtube Playlist

Akito

You don't think it reaches that heat...huh.

Toya

Yeah.

Toya

I thought that if I put everyone's feelings into it, I would be able to reach that heat, so I've been trying many different methods...but for some reason, it isn't going well.

An

Hmmm... This is a super good song already, though...

Toya

I see...thank you.

Toya

But, as of right now, I feel it leaves far too shallow an impression.

Toya

With this song, I want people to feel our determination. So, I'd like to put more power into it.

An

Oh, then, why don't you put a phrase right before the chorus that builds to the climax?

Toya

I see...you're right, that is an option.

Akito

What else...why don't you raise the tempo from the A melody? Build it up in the first half and make it feel like you're setting a good pace——

KAITO

...

KAITO

The overall quality has improved a lot, and the feelings you wanted to share are definitely coming across, Toya-kun...

KAITO

But it still feels like it's lacking that driving heat that the songs at RAD WEEKEND had.

Toya

So you think so as well, KAITO-san...

Toya

In that case...it might be a good idea for me to analyze the songs from RAD WEEKEND first...

Toya

I'll analyze them, and when I can understand the strengths of Ken-san and the others' music, I'll use them in my own.

KAITO

Oh, if that's the case, I'll help out!

Toya

Eh...do you mean it? Thank you very much.

Toya

(...Retooling every sound from scratch didn't work.)

Toya

(I'm running out of ideas... But...)

Akito

——Oi, Toya. You listening?

Toya

...Ah, sorry. What were you saying?

Akito

Nothing important, just some small talk. You just looked like you were thinking too much.

Toya

Is that so... I'm sorry for worrying you.

Akito

Don't worry about it. Everyone's feeling like that right now.

Akito

If I'm being honest, I've kind of run into a wall too...I can't find a way forward.

Toya

...I see...

Akito

But...we don't have any other choice.

Akito

Even if we can't see the path ahead of us, we have to keep moving forward. ...Ain't that right?

Toya

...Yes. That's right.

One month later

Toya

...

Toya

(I can't reach that heat. ...I don't know what the cause of it is, even though I've considered it from so many angles.)

Toya

(The tempo, the arrangement of sounds, I've tried all sorts of different things. I looked over my materials, in case it might've been a problem with the audio library itself. I studied composition techniques, even beyond classical.)

Toya

(No...is it because I'm making it with surface-level knowledge? But...KAITO-san looked over the technical aspects of it, so I don't think that's my biggest problem...)

Toya

(...Even though I'm supposed to be shouldering everyone's feelings.)

Toya

(I can't reach it. What's the reason for this?)

Toya

(...It's as if I'm trapped in the dark. No matter how much I reach out, I can't grasp anything.)

Toya

(At this rate...)

Flashback

End flashback

Toya

(...I won't be able to respond to them.)

Toya

(They all entrusted the songwriting to me, and I won't be able to live up to the weight of those feelings.)

Toya

(...If that happens...)

Flashback

Middle School Toya

...It's impossible.

Middle School Toya

I can't...do it anymore.

Middle School Toya

I can't live up to Dad's——everyone's expectations of me...!!

End flashback

Toya

...

Toya

...I won't let that happen.

Toya

I will never run away again...!

Toya

No matter what, I will live up to those feelings, and create something...!

Toya

(If I don't understand the reason, then I have to dig deeper.)

Toya

(Think of all the different possibilities...! There has to be something I haven't tried yet...!!)

— Some time later —

— Some time later —

— Some time later —

One month later
Morning

Toya's Father

...Would you get me one more cup?

Toya's Mother

Of course, more coffee. If you would please wait a moment.

Toya's Father

... Is Toya still asleep?

Toya's Mother

Ah... Toya-san already has his breakfast early this morning and took it to his room...

Toya's Father

He's eating in his room? What terrible manners.

Toya's Mother

You're right, but...he seems exhausted from writing songs as of late. I'm very worried about him.

Toya's Mother

I advised him to slow down in the mornings and eat breakfast at his leisure, but he said that right now is a difficult time for him...

Toya

... Good morning, Dad.

Toya's Father

...Toya, have you not slept?

Toya

...No. I have. It would affect my performance if I didn't...

Toya

——Mom, do we have any bottles of mineral water? It's a waste of time to bring drinks to my room whenever I need them.

Toya's Mother

Yes, we do have some... Are you sure you're alright?

Toya

Yes. I apologize for worrying you...

Toya

It's just that, right now...I have no choice but to do this.

Toya's Mother

...Please don't push yourself.

Toya

...I understand.

Toya's Mother

...Toya-san...I wonder if he's okay...?

Toya's Father

...

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